The Search for Neverland

In oneself lies the whole world and if you know how to look and...

Sun, 26 May 2013 04:14:48 -0400

In oneself lies the whole world and if you know how to look and learn, the door is there and the key is in your hand. Nobody on earth can give you either the key or the door to open, except yourself - J. Krishnamurti

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Sun, 26 May 2013 04:11:44 -0400

"Meditation is really very simple. We complicate it. We weave a web of ideas round it what it is and..."

Sat, 25 May 2013 18:38:10 -0400

““Meditation is really very simple. We complicate it. We weave a web of ideas round it what it...

A few weeks into my new practice and my gosh is it a whirlwind...

Sat, 25 May 2013 12:48:46 -0400

A few weeks into my new practice and my gosh is it a whirlwind of emotions.

So far I have been practising and teaching myself reiki over the past month. There have been many lovely people who have been adventurous enough to let me try my skills on them, and in doing so have helped me develop and hone my gift into something far more beautiful than I could have imagined.

Recently, I have felt a large amount of empathy with everyone I meet. When I talk to them, I can see and feel the struggles that they go through, the challenges they are facing, even the ones they do not tell me about. I have learnt to be careful in what I say to many people as I do not wish to offend or cause hurt to them, particularly if they do not realise what their problems are themselves. In many cases, it comes with a pinch os scepticism and although I do not wish to impart my beliefs and opinions onto them, it is difficult for me to not tell them what I see. Instead, I only request that anyone who wishes me to ‘heal’ them through vibrational energy is fully aware of what I am doing.

Many people have been wonderful and I find that the smallest release of emotion can help on a day-to-day basis. Many people I have helped I only see them for five to ten minutes, this is enough of a boost. Recently, I massaged a friend and did a full 15 minutes meditative cleanse and for me the feeling was euphoric. I had finally begun to block any usage of my own personal energy and gather from outside resources. Before this, I would often feel drained and overwhelmed but now I felt awake and revived.

Now, my empathic energy swirls around my projecting my energy onto others giving them a relaxed and healing atmosphere, something I found out whilst Georgie was suffering after having his wisdom teeth out. My constant presence while he was recovering the first few days was enough to keep the pain at bay. Until, I left and he was hit with extreme nausea and discomfort in his mouth. Oops! What the next stage will develop into is unknown but I can only imagine it to be part of the adventure.

"When love first happens, the individuals are giving each other energy unconsciously and both people..."

Fri, 17 May 2013 06:56:17 -0400

““When love first happens, the individuals are giving each other energy unconsciously and both...

Rosi Golan - “Think Of Me” (by Rosi Golan)

Fri, 17 May 2013 05:47:47 -0400

Rosi Golan - “Think Of Me” (by Rosi Golan)

"Just read that Vitamin D can help reduce the chances of developing breast cancer! Vitamin D is found..."

Fri, 17 May 2013 05:44:54 -0400

“Just read that Vitamin D can help reduce the chances of developing breast cancer! Vitamin D...

The moment you have in your heart this extraordinary thing...

Tue, 07 May 2013 05:06:47 -0400

The moment you have in your heart this extraordinary thing called love and feel the depth, the delight, the ecstasy of it, you will discover that for you the world is transformed - Jiddu Krishnamurti

So, I talked to a dear friend of mine today who is going through...

Sun, 05 May 2013 16:30:00 -0400

So, I talked to a dear friend of mine today who is going through relationship problems and it made me think about my own.

Everyone has problems in relationships, big and small, and what we usually do is try and hide our true emotions from our partners because we don’t want to create conflict or talk about our real feelings. However, this creates a blockage in our energy field causing us to feel stress and eventually dis-ease.

What meditation tells us is that all of us worry about issues or situations that haven’t even happened yet. Because you worry about the past - things that have happened before where you were disappointed, there is your fear - making the same mistake. when infact you could be in the one true relationship but you’re not letting yourself enjoy the NOW - the present moment because you’re worrying about past situations that may or may not happen.

So, you go to a friend or colleague and you talk about what’s bothering you. Sometimes people wont tell you the truth because they dont want to hurt your feelings. In reality, it is probably because they don’t know how to resolve the problem as they are most likely having the same dispute with their partner, so how would you expect someone who is troubled to solve a problem.

Thinking is our biggest problem - we need to watch our reactions to certain situations, when people talk to us a particular way, or how we judge others. Instead, we must feel it and try to understand why we feel this way? I told her don’t shy away from feeling the bad stuff but let it happen and try and ask yourself why you feel bad?

I know that I used to be a sucker for romance and that fairy-tale feeling. But deep down it was the need to find that perfect one, the ideal man to give me the security I thought I needed. What I have now is a purer love, and even so it’s still developing, changing and growing as we grow, together. There is little or no jealousy, no possession that turns into anger because of my insecurities. I can honestly say I’ve never been this happy.

In a relationship when you hold a love for someone that is pure and honest, then you ask nothing off them; you let them go away and do whatever they want to do, even if you are not a part of their life at the moment. Right now, my partner is a long way away from me, I miss him deeply, we talk all the time and although I know I would rather be with him, it doesn’t change the way I feel about him, or him about me.

That saying ‘if you love someone let them go, and if they don’t come back, then they never belonged to you in the first place’ - I disagree with this entirely. No-one belongs to anyone, that is attachment. The saying should go ‘if you love someone let them go, and send them love so they know that you are with them, always’ - then you will find a lasting peace.

Love, Medicine and Miracles - The journey begins!

Wed, 01 May 2013 16:40:00 -0400

Since doing meditation, and practising it on a regular basis, I have begun to develop a warmth that...

"A voice spoke through me to this woman. “Let me walk you back through your life and through..."

Mon, 29 Apr 2013 17:07:13 -0400

“A voice spoke through me to this woman. “Let me walk you back through your life and...

It has been over six months since I began my journey of...

Sun, 17 Mar 2013 10:35:00 -0400

It has been over six months since I began my journey of meditation and spiritual enlightenment (or to not sound so cliché – a journey of self-discovery), and in doing so I have begun to change various aspects of my life in order to pursue a life of simplicity and harmony.

When entering the meditation retreat in Bali, Lovina* I was eager to learn and find a new purpose to my life. The retreat teaches you to find peace within your everyday life. You are taught to meditate throughout your whole day, you can meditate when you walk, or more traditionally sit and be still.

I have since begun to understand a lot more about myself. In becoming more aware of my own self I understand more about my emotions, and more importantly my reactions to various situations. My previous attraction to material possessions such as clothes, handbags, make-up, all of the usual girly things I once sought pride from. I now realise that this all was part of collecting objects that fed towards my ‘ego*’ my so-called image of myself I wished to build.

Many people often savour the purchase of a new phone, new dress, new car, etc and enjoy how it makes them feel. It makes them feel good; it gives them satisfaction, at that moment in time. But once the newness of the purchase diminishes, so to does the satisfaction and we are often left with an empty feeling that once again needs feeding.

Meditation teaches you to fill this space with more than temporary, superficial materials with something that lasts longer and makes you feel wonderful. I am yet to fully grasp this feeling but from the glimpses I have had, has made an immense impact my own life.

It has greatly impacted my personal life, in particular my own relationship with my boyfriend, my parents and has greatly influenced my friendship groups. It is difficult once you start to lose a sense of self-image to maintain previous relationships, including those that may once have been close to you, such as parents and relatives. By this I mean, as your perceptions change you may begin to question more and more your motivations for being in particular situations. But all of this may not be negative. I have since begun to cultivate much more understanding and loving relationships with those who are similarly like-minded.

What I hope to gain from my meditational experience is a much deeper understanding of my life purpose, and to create a life full of love but through simplicity.

*Lovina Retreat, Bali, Indonesia: brahmaviharaarama.com

*What is Ego:

Ego is your self-image. Ego says, “I am something, I am somebody, I am very great” OR
“I am not so great, I am not so evolved, I am a fool.” Ego causes upset and hurt feelings and causes heaviness, discomfort. It doesn’t let love flow naturally, sometimes it is forced dependant on situation. Ego is simply not being natural, it is when you go away from your core truth.

Since coming home from Indonesia, I have significantly changed...

Fri, 21 Dec 2012 13:41:00 -0500

Since coming home from Indonesia, I have significantly changed my life in order to have a healthier and more content existence. I have since stopped eating red meat in order to maintain high energy levels throughout the day. I had found that eating red meat such as lamb, beef and pork, like bacon and gammon, were making me sluggish and slowed down my digestion. I am not saying I am a vegetarian, as I still choose to eat fish and chicken, just in small amounts.

Also, my meditation practice has increased, and I know have developed a more structural routine to my day that fits in time to be still and peaceful. I will be the first to say that I was initially skeptical when approaching the matter of meditation, and it is only with continued perseverance and guidance from my lovely boyfriend that I have begun to reap the benefits of it fully.

In Bali, we participated in a 10 day silent meditation retreat, meditating 16 hours a day - maintaining a quiet disposition and awareness of our thoughts. The experience transformed me in ways I would never have thought possible. I am resolved to let life take me in a direction that few believe can be fruitful, or possible. I am a firm believer that things happen for a reason and I believe my life purpose has been shown to me. During the retreat I began to experience sensations that I can only describe in comparison to a balloon. A balloon that is being filled inside of you, it fills each day expanding and filling you up until one day, it explodes. Within this explosion a surrounding of light covering you, embracing you in a warmth that glows both healing and nurturing. It was in that moment for me all things stopped. Everything stopped and seemed to stare straight back at me. I began to see how things really were, the sun, grass, the air around me, the trees and plants were all connected through something indescribable. Colours were not what we perceived them and my senses were experiencing new sensations. It was as if time was slowing down, allowing me to take everything in and see how the birds would fly and chase, play and hunt.

The most beautiful thing that happened was during the fourth day of meditation dozens of butterflies surrounded me, landed on my palms and on the backs of my hands. They sat there for several seconds it must have been, although, it seemed much longer. My hands were beginning to constantly feel warm, not just warm but a heat radiated from them that I am unable to explain. It was as if I had put my hands in front of a fire and let the warmth radiate through them, but no, I had just been sat in stillness.

Since then, several things have happened to make me question my place in this world. I began to feel manifestations of energy both good and bad, even seeing a somewhat physical form in front of my eyes without a logical explanation. The bubble still surrounds me on my journey, the glow of an orange aura healing my fears and anxieties help to maintain my path onward to becoming a healer. I return back to supposed normality, back to city life with an understanding that there is much more to this day-to-day rat race we see as ‘living’. How do you cope when each day those around you do not see, or have not yet seen the beauty that life really is? Do they even want to see, that is the question? Is humanity so concerned about what is going to happen tomorrow, next week, next year or even in an hours time, that they can never see what is happening right now?

Wake up, you can’t see if your eyes aren’t open!

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh...

Thu, 20 Dec 2012 16:36:49 -0500

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much. We have multiplied our possessions but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often. We’ve learned how to make a living but not a life. We’ve added years to life, not life to years.

This past year has been a whirlwind of emotions, new beginnings,...

Thu, 20 Dec 2012 14:54:08 -0500

This past year has been a whirlwind of emotions, new beginnings, new friends, old habits dying and a change in me that I believe is for the better. Do you ever just sit back and think…’Wow, I’m so lucky!’ What an amazing year and I have one person to thank for helping me along every step of the way. Sometimes you don’t realise how much someone loves you until you look at yourself through their eyes. Here is life through the eyes of Jess, 2012. Enjoy and blessings to you all x

The world through my lovers eyes

Fri, 24 Aug 2012 07:29:57 -0400

The world through my lovers eyes

Mine and Georgie’s last week in Newquay before we leave...

Fri, 24 Aug 2012 07:20:53 -0400

Mine and Georgie’s last week in Newquay before we leave for Bali. Began packing some stuff up today and getting cardboard boxes sorted to put ‘our’ stuff together. It makes me giggle every time I say words like ‘our’ and ‘we’ but that’s what we are. First trip away together and I feel sometimes it is as if we have always been together. This song keeps me calm and puts a smile on my face, the tones are so relaxed and melodic and the words touch my heart.

Hey Gringo? You looking at me??? *Courtesy of Claire at Chez...

Thu, 19 Jul 2012 10:08:33 -0400

Hey Gringo? You looking at me???

*Courtesy of Claire at Chez Claire and Garfield.

*Thank you to Kieran, Georgie and Paul for this epic picture!

Update: So, I’m looking forward to working the Feeder...

Thu, 19 Jul 2012 10:04:00 -0400

Update:

So, I’m looking forward to working the Feeder concert at Lusty Glaze beach next week. Plus, working at Sailors Pub/Club from next week which will be a laugh and very messy (by this I mean me coming home covered in Jack Daniels and Vodka, none of which will have passed my lips) and watching people make fools of themselves getting drunk. Fun times!

Me and Georgie have now booked our flights to Bali, Indonesia and begun planning our trip. Can’t wait to tour Bali, Ubud and Sumbawa. Even though I will most definitely NOT be surfing the enormous waves there, I will be getting my tan on and enjoying a coconut here and there :)

Life is pretty darn spiffy. Friday night tomorrow which means ‘THEME NIGHT’ - This week is ‘THAI’ night, requirement is to bring your own ‘TIE’??? Erm, think may have to go as myself or draw a tie on myself! I love our Newquay family that seems to grow every week. Sushi night was a fun starter to the soon to be tradition. Last weeks mexican night saw a very interesting take on moustache drawing. See following picture!!!

Beautiful day today, day off and spent it sat on a beach watching Georgie work lifeguarding while I read a book and munch on choc digestives. HEAVEN!!!! Surely life can be this simple? And will be even more so when we get on that plane for the best 3 months ever! Yahoooooo!!! City life? Nahhhhh, get out of there people!!!

Rosi Golan - Shine (lyrics) (by MO0OSIK) This life is light,Its...

Sun, 08 Jul 2012 16:40:32 -0400

Rosi Golan - Shine (lyrics) (by MO0OSIK)

This life is light,
Its light burns bright
So we’ll take it day by day, and let it be

And everyone will see, how good it feels
Oh they’ll see the world for all that it could be

Oh, let the sunshine in
I wanna feel it from within
You spin me around and make me feel like I could shine
Shine

So what do you say, if the sky turned grey?
With a kiss you send the rain clouds on their way

Oh, let the sunlight in
I wanna feel it from within
You spin me around and make me feel like I could shine
Shine

This life is light,
Its light burns bright
Every moment is a moment you could say,

Oh, let the sunlight in
I wanna feel it from within
Spin me around and make me feel like I could shine
Shine