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When love first happens, the individuals are giving each other energy unconsciously and both people feel buoyant and elated. That’s the incredible high we call being ‘in love.’ Unfortunately, once they expect this feeling to come from another person, they cut themselves off from the energy in the universe and begin to rely even more on the energy from each other - only now there doesn’t seem to be enough and so they stop giving each other energy and fall back into their dramas in an attempt to control each other and force the other’s energy their way. We humans have always sought to increase our personal energy in the only manner we have known, by seeking to psychologically steal it from the others - an unconscious competition that underlies all human conflict in the world.

― James Redfield, The Celestine Prophecy
4 days ago

Rosi Golan - “Think Of Me” (by Rosi Golan)

4 days ago
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Just read that Vitamin D can help reduce the chances of developing breast cancer! Vitamin D is found in eggs, not just sunlight and nuts! Just had scrambled eggs with onion and tomato on toast and am feeling good! Going for a run later, c’mon sunshine push through!!

4 days ago
The moment you have in your heart this extraordinary thing called love and feel the depth, the delight, the ecstasy of it, you will discover that for you the world is transformed - Jiddu Krishnamurti

The moment you have in your heart this extraordinary thing called love and feel the depth, the delight, the ecstasy of it, you will discover that for you the world is transformed - Jiddu Krishnamurti

2 weeks ago
So, I talked to a dear friend of mine today who is going through relationship problems and it made me think about my own. Everyone has problems in relationships, big and small, and what we usually do is try and hide our true emotions from our partners because we don’t want to create conflict or talk about our real feelings. However, this creates a blockage in our energy field causing us to feel stress and eventually dis-ease. What meditation tells us is that all of us worry about issues or situations that haven’t even happened yet. Because you worry about the past - things that have happened before where you were disappointed, there is your fear - making the same mistake. when infact you could be in the one true relationship but you’re not letting yourself enjoy the NOW - the present moment because you’re worrying about past situations that may or may not happen. So, you go to a friend or colleague and you talk about what’s bothering you. Sometimes people wont tell you the truth because they dont want to hurt your feelings. In reality, it is probably because they don’t know how to resolve the problem as they are most likely having the same dispute with their partner, so how would you expect someone who is troubled to solve a problem.  Thinking is our biggest problem - we need to watch our reactions to certain situations, when people talk to us a particular way, or how we judge others. Instead, we must feel it and try to understand why we feel this way? I told her don’t shy away from feeling the bad stuff but let it happen and try and ask yourself why you feel bad? I know that I used to be a sucker for romance and that fairy-tale feeling. But deep down it was the need to find that perfect one, the ideal man to give me the security I thought I needed. What I have now is a purer love, and even so it’s still developing, changing and growing as we grow, together. There is little or no jealousy, no possession that turns into anger because of my insecurities. I can honestly say I’ve never been this happy. In a relationship when you hold a love for someone that is pure and honest, then you ask nothing off them; you let them go away and do whatever they want to do, even if you are not a part of their life at the moment. Right now, my partner is a long way away from me, I miss him deeply, we talk all the time and although I know I would rather be with him, it doesn’t change the way I feel about him, or him about me. That saying ‘if you love someone let them go, and if they don’t come back, then they never belonged to you in the first place’ - I disagree with this entirely. No-one belongs to anyone, that is attachment. The saying should go ‘if you love someone let them go, and send them love so they know that you are with them, always’ - then you will find a lasting peace.

So, I talked to a dear friend of mine today who is going through relationship problems and it made me think about my own.

Everyone has problems in relationships, big and small, and what we usually do is try and hide our true emotions from our partners because we don’t want to create conflict or talk about our real feelings. However, this creates a blockage in our energy field causing us to feel stress and eventually dis-ease.

What meditation tells us is that all of us worry about issues or situations that haven’t even happened yet. Because you worry about the past - things that have happened before where you were disappointed, there is your fear - making the same mistake. when infact you could be in the one true relationship but you’re not letting yourself enjoy the NOW - the present moment because you’re worrying about past situations that may or may not happen.

So, you go to a friend or colleague and you talk about what’s bothering you. Sometimes people wont tell you the truth because they dont want to hurt your feelings. In reality, it is probably because they don’t know how to resolve the problem as they are most likely having the same dispute with their partner, so how would you expect someone who is troubled to solve a problem. 

Thinking is our biggest problem - we need to watch our reactions to certain situations, when people talk to us a particular way, or how we judge others. Instead, we must feel it and try to understand why we feel this way? I told her don’t shy away from feeling the bad stuff but let it happen and try and ask yourself why you feel bad?

I know that I used to be a sucker for romance and that fairy-tale feeling. But deep down it was the need to find that perfect one, the ideal man to give me the security I thought I needed. What I have now is a purer love, and even so it’s still developing, changing and growing as we grow, together. There is little or no jealousy, no possession that turns into anger because of my insecurities. I can honestly say I’ve never been this happy.

In a relationship when you hold a love for someone that is pure and honest, then you ask nothing off them; you let them go away and do whatever they want to do, even if you are not a part of their life at the moment. Right now, my partner is a long way away from me, I miss him deeply, we talk all the time and although I know I would rather be with him, it doesn’t change the way I feel about him, or him about me.

That saying ‘if you love someone let them go, and if they don’t come back, then they never belonged to you in the first place’ - I disagree with this entirely. No-one belongs to anyone, that is attachment. The saying should go ‘if you love someone let them go, and send them love so they know that you are with them, always’ - then you will find a lasting peace.

2 weeks ago

Love, Medicine and Miracles - The journey begins!

Since doing meditation, and practising it on a regular basis, I have begun to develop a warmth that radiates through my hands towards others. It has been happening quite a lot recently and I’d like to explain what has happened to me and why I have opened up to more ‘supernatural’ occurrences. I am not saying I have special powers or anything extraordinary as such but here is a little bit about my journey and why I am seeking to find more truth to homeopathy and holistic practices as a form of natural medicine.

Over the last year my boyfriend and I have met some pretty amazing people, individuals who are perfectly normal men and women but carry gifts or skills that they use to help guide others and give them a new perception of life.

During 2012, my boyfriend George was talking with a woman who can see peoples auras and various energies and spirits, both good and bad. She is a perfectly normal person but she has had this gift for a very long time. She was explaining to George about his aura and the spiritual path he was beginning to embark on, and his energy and personal issues etc. She asked him about me. *Now this woman had never met George and he hadn’t said to her anything about me but there she was telling him how lovely I was, a kind person and that if we were to have a child it would be very special. Obviously this freaked him out a bit but he asked her to continue. She described me in detail, my long dark hair and that I was of asian heritage (She hadn’t met me yet btw) and what I would bring to this relationship and even if I was pregnant yet. She mentioned that I wear a symbol of my heritage, a medallion or marking around my neck - something passed down by my ancestors as a symbol of power and protection and enhances special powers such as the ability to heal people.

*Obviously I did not know any of this as I hadn’t met up with them yet so George was gobsmacked!!!!

She said that the powers were hidden deep in my blood but would be released when I was ready to embrace my path in life. - DEEP!!! 

So, I walked in said hello and sat down not knowing any of this had gone on - they were looking at me funny. It turned out the medallion or marking she was talking about is a scar i’ve got on my chest, one that I don’t remember having or getting except that I was really warm. Since then I have researched through my meditation, talking with various teachers and guides about my life purpose, and it seems the ancestry resides throughout my family as warriors of strength and to help and heal people.

Please remember I am not saying that i am in anyway a psychic or psycho-analysing you, I just tell you what I see. At this moment I am still learning and refining my skills, it seems that I am more drawn to those who have very strong connections and their energy fields are much stronger and more visible. Anyone with a low energy field so for example someone who is depressed I won’t get much from as there is too much going on for me to focus on. 

Lately, I have begun to practise on those willing to believe that there is an energy source that resides in all of us. Healing someone can be both physical and provide mental stability. Once ‘healed’ one’s spirit or energy will have released long-held fears and negative thoughts that has trapped them and reduced their energy levels - they will begin to feel lighter and more fluid in their day-to-day life. Our energy contains our emotions and life choices, both positive and negative. We weave our spirits into the relationships of our lives and any ‘unfinished’ business will linger until it manifests into a disease or illness. 

Remember, you must find a balance between your physical and mental state. A good diet and lots of exercise alone is not enough, you must find a way to remain centred and self-less, through this one can only find this inner peace through meditation. Without meditation, we are lost among a whirlpool of confusion, chaos and emotional dis-ease. Doing all this will eventually bring forward a love that you can not even imagine; it is a love purer and more special than can be described.

Namaste x

2 weeks ago
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A voice spoke through me to this woman. “Let me walk you back through your life and through each of the relationships of your life,” it said. “Let me walk with you through all the fears you’ve had, and let me show you how those fears controlled you for so long that the energy of life could no longer nurture you.

http://www.spiritsite.com/writing/carmys/part3.shtml

Caroline Myss - Anatomy of the Spirit: The seven stages of power and healing. I brought a book that explains the benefits of reiki to enhance my develop my path to enlightenment. It interests me that the power of thought and mind over matter can produce such fascinating results, and I hope to improve my own skills. chapter review to come, so watch this space.

3 weeks ago
It has been over six months since I began my journey of meditation and spiritual enlightenment (or to not sound so cliché – a journey of self-discovery), and in doing so I have begun to change various aspects of my life in order to pursue a life of simplicity and harmony. When entering the meditation retreat in Bali, Lovina* I was eager to learn and find a new purpose to my life. The retreat teaches you to find peace within your everyday life. You are taught to meditate throughout your whole day, you can meditate when you walk, or more traditionally sit and be still. I have since begun to understand a lot more about myself. In becoming more aware of my own self I understand more about my emotions, and more importantly my reactions to various situations. My previous attraction to material possessions such as clothes, handbags, make-up, all of the usual girly things I once sought pride from. I now realise that this all was part of collecting objects that fed towards my ‘ego*’ my so-called image of myself I wished to build. Many people often savour the purchase of a new phone, new dress, new car, etc and enjoy how it makes them feel. It makes them feel good; it gives them satisfaction, at that moment in time. But once the newness of the purchase diminishes, so to does the satisfaction and we are often left with an empty feeling that once again needs feeding. Meditation teaches you to fill this space with more than temporary, superficial materials with something that lasts longer and makes you feel wonderful. I am yet to fully grasp this feeling but from the glimpses I have had, has made an immense impact my own life. It has greatly impacted my personal life, in particular my own relationship with my boyfriend, my parents and has greatly influenced my friendship groups. It is difficult once you start to lose a sense of self-image to maintain previous relationships, including those that may once have been close to you, such as parents and relatives. By this I mean, as your perceptions change you may begin to question more and more your motivations for being in particular situations. But all of this may not be negative. I have since begun to cultivate much more understanding and loving relationships with those who are similarly like-minded. What I hope to gain from my meditational experience is a much deeper understanding of my life purpose, and to create a life full of love but through simplicity.  *Lovina Retreat, Bali, Indonesia: brahmaviharaarama.com *What is Ego:  Ego is your self-image. Ego says, “I am something, I am somebody, I am very great” OR“I am not so great, I am not so evolved, I am a fool.” Ego causes upset and hurt feelings and causes heaviness, discomfort. It doesn’t let love flow naturally, sometimes it is forced dependant on situation. Ego is simply not being natural, it is when you go away from your core truth.

It has been over six months since I began my journey of meditation and spiritual enlightenment (or to not sound so cliché – a journey of self-discovery), and in doing so I have begun to change various aspects of my life in order to pursue a life of simplicity and harmony.

When entering the meditation retreat in Bali, Lovina* I was eager to learn and find a new purpose to my life. The retreat teaches you to find peace within your everyday life. You are taught to meditate throughout your whole day, you can meditate when you walk, or more traditionally sit and be still.

I have since begun to understand a lot more about myself. In becoming more aware of my own self I understand more about my emotions, and more importantly my reactions to various situations. My previous attraction to material possessions such as clothes, handbags, make-up, all of the usual girly things I once sought pride from. I now realise that this all was part of collecting objects that fed towards my ‘ego*’ my so-called image of myself I wished to build.

Many people often savour the purchase of a new phone, new dress, new car, etc and enjoy how it makes them feel. It makes them feel good; it gives them satisfaction, at that moment in time. But once the newness of the purchase diminishes, so to does the satisfaction and we are often left with an empty feeling that once again needs feeding.

Meditation teaches you to fill this space with more than temporary, superficial materials with something that lasts longer and makes you feel wonderful. I am yet to fully grasp this feeling but from the glimpses I have had, has made an immense impact my own life.

It has greatly impacted my personal life, in particular my own relationship with my boyfriend, my parents and has greatly influenced my friendship groups. It is difficult once you start to lose a sense of self-image to maintain previous relationships, including those that may once have been close to you, such as parents and relatives. By this I mean, as your perceptions change you may begin to question more and more your motivations for being in particular situations. But all of this may not be negative. I have since begun to cultivate much more understanding and loving relationships with those who are similarly like-minded.

What I hope to gain from my meditational experience is a much deeper understanding of my life purpose, and to create a life full of love but through simplicity. 


*Lovina Retreat, Bali, Indonesia: brahmaviharaarama.com

*What is Ego: 

Ego is your self-image. Ego says, “I am something, I am somebody, I am very great” OR
“I am not so great, I am not so evolved, I am a fool.” Ego causes upset and hurt feelings and causes heaviness, discomfort. It doesn’t let love flow naturally, sometimes it is forced dependant on situation. Ego is simply not being natural, it is when you go away from your core truth.

2 months ago
Since coming home from Indonesia, I have significantly changed my life in order to have a healthier and more content existence. I have since stopped eating red meat in order to maintain high energy levels throughout the day. I had found that eating red meat such as lamb, beef and pork, like bacon and gammon, were making me sluggish and slowed down my digestion. I am not saying I am a vegetarian, as I still choose to eat fish and chicken, just in small amounts.  Also, my meditation practice has increased, and I know have developed a more structural routine to my day that fits in time to be still and peaceful. I will be the first to say that I was initially skeptical when approaching the matter of meditation, and it is only with continued perseverance and guidance from my lovely boyfriend that I have begun to reap the benefits of it fully. In Bali, we participated in a 10 day silent meditation retreat, meditating 16 hours a day - maintaining a quiet disposition and awareness of our thoughts. The experience transformed me in ways I would never have thought possible. I am resolved to let life take me in a direction that few believe can be fruitful, or possible. I am a firm believer that things happen for a reason and I believe my life purpose has been shown to me. During the retreat I began to experience sensations that I can only describe in comparison to a balloon. A balloon that is being filled inside of you, it fills each day expanding and filling you up until one day, it explodes. Within this explosion a surrounding of light covering you, embracing you in a warmth that glows both healing and nurturing. It was in that moment for me all things stopped. Everything stopped and seemed to stare straight back at me. I began to see how things really were, the sun, grass, the air around me, the trees and plants were all connected through something indescribable. Colours were not what we perceived them and my senses were experiencing new sensations. It was as if time was slowing down, allowing me to take everything in and see how the birds would fly and chase, play and hunt. The most beautiful thing that happened was during the fourth day of meditation dozens of butterflies surrounded me, landed on my palms and on the backs of my hands. They sat there for several seconds it must have been, although, it seemed much longer. My hands were beginning to constantly feel warm, not just warm but a heat radiated from them that I am unable to explain. It was as if I had put my hands in front of a fire and let the warmth radiate through them, but no, I had just been sat in stillness. Since then, several things have happened to make me question my place in this world. I began to feel manifestations of energy both good and bad, even seeing a somewhat physical form in front of my eyes without a logical explanation. The bubble still surrounds me on my journey, the glow of an orange aura healing my fears and anxieties help to maintain my path onward to becoming a healer. I return back to supposed normality, back to city life with an understanding that there is much more to this day-to-day rat race we see as ‘living’. How do you cope when each day those around you do not see, or have not yet seen the beauty that life really is? Do they even want to see, that is the question? Is humanity so concerned about what is going to happen tomorrow, next week, next year or even in an hours time, that they can never see what is happening right now? Wake up, you can’t see if your eyes aren’t open!

Since coming home from Indonesia, I have significantly changed my life in order to have a healthier and more content existence. I have since stopped eating red meat in order to maintain high energy levels throughout the day. I had found that eating red meat such as lamb, beef and pork, like bacon and gammon, were making me sluggish and slowed down my digestion. I am not saying I am a vegetarian, as I still choose to eat fish and chicken, just in small amounts. 

Also, my meditation practice has increased, and I know have developed a more structural routine to my day that fits in time to be still and peaceful. I will be the first to say that I was initially skeptical when approaching the matter of meditation, and it is only with continued perseverance and guidance from my lovely boyfriend that I have begun to reap the benefits of it fully.

In Bali, we participated in a 10 day silent meditation retreat, meditating 16 hours a day - maintaining a quiet disposition and awareness of our thoughts. The experience transformed me in ways I would never have thought possible. I am resolved to let life take me in a direction that few believe can be fruitful, or possible. I am a firm believer that things happen for a reason and I believe my life purpose has been shown to me. During the retreat I began to experience sensations that I can only describe in comparison to a balloon. A balloon that is being filled inside of you, it fills each day expanding and filling you up until one day, it explodes. Within this explosion a surrounding of light covering you, embracing you in a warmth that glows both healing and nurturing. It was in that moment for me all things stopped. Everything stopped and seemed to stare straight back at me. I began to see how things really were, the sun, grass, the air around me, the trees and plants were all connected through something indescribable. Colours were not what we perceived them and my senses were experiencing new sensations. It was as if time was slowing down, allowing me to take everything in and see how the birds would fly and chase, play and hunt.

The most beautiful thing that happened was during the fourth day of meditation dozens of butterflies surrounded me, landed on my palms and on the backs of my hands. They sat there for several seconds it must have been, although, it seemed much longer. My hands were beginning to constantly feel warm, not just warm but a heat radiated from them that I am unable to explain. It was as if I had put my hands in front of a fire and let the warmth radiate through them, but no, I had just been sat in stillness.

Since then, several things have happened to make me question my place in this world. I began to feel manifestations of energy both good and bad, even seeing a somewhat physical form in front of my eyes without a logical explanation. The bubble still surrounds me on my journey, the glow of an orange aura healing my fears and anxieties help to maintain my path onward to becoming a healer. I return back to supposed normality, back to city life with an understanding that there is much more to this day-to-day rat race we see as ‘living’. How do you cope when each day those around you do not see, or have not yet seen the beauty that life really is? Do they even want to see, that is the question? Is humanity so concerned about what is going to happen tomorrow, next week, next year or even in an hours time, that they can never see what is happening right now?

Wake up, you can’t see if your eyes aren’t open!

5 months ago
We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much. We have multiplied our possessions but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often. We’ve learned how to make a living but not a life. We’ve added years to life, not life to years.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much. We have multiplied our possessions but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often. We’ve learned how to make a living but not a life. We’ve added years to life, not life to years.

5 months ago

This past year has been a whirlwind of emotions, new beginnings, new friends, old habits dying and a change in me that I believe is for the better. Do you ever just sit back and think…’Wow, I’m so lucky!’ What an amazing year and I have one person to thank for helping me along every step of the way. Sometimes you don’t realise how much someone loves you until you look at yourself through their eyes. Here is life through the eyes of Jess, 2012. Enjoy and blessings to you all x

5 months ago
The world through my lovers eyes

The world through my lovers eyes

9 months ago

Mine and Georgie’s last week in Newquay before we leave for Bali. Began packing some stuff up today and getting cardboard boxes sorted to put ‘our’ stuff together. It makes me giggle every time I say words like ‘our’ and ‘we’ but that’s what we are. First trip away together and I feel sometimes it is as if we have always been together. This song keeps me calm and puts a smile on my face, the tones are so relaxed and melodic and the words touch my heart.

(Source: youtube.com)

9 months ago
Hey Gringo? You looking at me??? *Courtesy of Claire at Chez Claire and Garfield. *Thank you to Kieran, Georgie and Paul for this epic picture!

Hey Gringo? You looking at me???

*Courtesy of Claire at Chez Claire and Garfield.

*Thank you to Kieran, Georgie and Paul for this epic picture!

10 months ago
Update: So, I’m looking forward to working the Feeder concert at Lusty Glaze beach next week. Plus, working at Sailors Pub/Club from next week which will be a laugh and very messy (by this I mean me coming home covered in Jack Daniels and Vodka, none of which will have passed my lips) and watching people make fools of themselves getting drunk. Fun times!  Me and Georgie have now booked our flights to Bali, Indonesia and begun planning our trip. Can’t wait to tour Bali, Ubud and Sumbawa. Even though I will most definitely NOT be surfing the enormous waves there, I will be getting my tan on and enjoying a coconut here and there :) Life is pretty darn spiffy. Friday night tomorrow which means ‘THEME NIGHT’ - This week is ‘THAI’ night, requirement is to bring your own ‘TIE’??? Erm, think may have to go as myself or draw a tie on myself! I love our Newquay family that seems to grow every week. Sushi night was a fun starter to the soon to be tradition. Last weeks mexican night saw a very interesting take on moustache drawing. See following picture!!! Beautiful day today, day off and spent it sat on a beach watching Georgie work lifeguarding while I read a book and munch on choc digestives. HEAVEN!!!! Surely life can be this simple? And will be even more so when we get on that plane for the best 3 months ever! Yahoooooo!!! City life? Nahhhhh, get out of there people!!! 

Update:

So, I’m looking forward to working the Feeder concert at Lusty Glaze beach next week. Plus, working at Sailors Pub/Club from next week which will be a laugh and very messy (by this I mean me coming home covered in Jack Daniels and Vodka, none of which will have passed my lips) and watching people make fools of themselves getting drunk. Fun times! 

Me and Georgie have now booked our flights to Bali, Indonesia and begun planning our trip. Can’t wait to tour Bali, Ubud and Sumbawa. Even though I will most definitely NOT be surfing the enormous waves there, I will be getting my tan on and enjoying a coconut here and there :)

Life is pretty darn spiffy. Friday night tomorrow which means ‘THEME NIGHT’ - This week is ‘THAI’ night, requirement is to bring your own ‘TIE’??? Erm, think may have to go as myself or draw a tie on myself! I love our Newquay family that seems to grow every week. Sushi night was a fun starter to the soon to be tradition. Last weeks mexican night saw a very interesting take on moustache drawing. See following picture!!!

Beautiful day today, day off and spent it sat on a beach watching Georgie work lifeguarding while I read a book and munch on choc digestives. HEAVEN!!!! Surely life can be this simple? And will be even more so when we get on that plane for the best 3 months ever! Yahoooooo!!! City life? Nahhhhh, get out of there people!!! 

10 months ago